The Body Shutdown: Feeling Like Your Body is Telling You to Die

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Last night, I think I consumed an all-time high of carbs. I was slurping in Coke with a straw, my lips barely able to grasp the stupid thing. Candy, chocolate, you name it, I ate it.

My stomach was churning and I just laid on my couch, feeling the energy being sucked right out of me.

That’s when things got weird. I’m not sure if I ever felt this way before (maybe I blocked it out of my mind), but last night, I felt my body shutting down slowly.

Breathing became eerily calm and slow. My body felt light and airy. My physical body felt defeated.

It was over an hour before I felt like something inside me sparked and back I came. This was one of the most frightening experiences. And yet today, if you saw me, it was like nothing ever happened.

This. is. invisible. illness.

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2 Comments

  1. Hi Jessica,

    Sorry to hear about your recent troubles with diabetes. You seem to have a hard time with it even though you work so hard to make it good. I feel like you take better care of yourself than I do, but sounds like you are having quite a few issues. Have you ever tried an insulin pump? It changed my life completely!

    James

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    1. Thanks so much James. I have not tried an insulin pump even though I do want to! I’m hoping with my next endo appointment I can make something happen. Thank you for taking the time to write to me. It means so much. Big hugs!

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